I was ironically excited when I started spotting, thinking my body had finally recognized it wasn't a good host for this embryo. When we went to the doctor on October 28th, she told me that the spotting I had experienced was not enough to indicate a miscarriage starting.
So now we had to decide, continue to wait, medicine, or surgery. I knew I didn't want to do surgery (the internet had scared me with all the stories of people who's uterus was damaged and they were infertile). Emotionally the prior week had sucked, so I decided to take the miso. The NP informed me that miso works for 80% of women (spoiler alert: keep in mind I'm one of a kind unique....). She also gave me the first dose, sent me with another dose to insert the next day if things didn't start picking up. She shared that I should expect a heavy flow period, passing of tissue, and some painful cramping. They send you home with vicodin; some women liken the cramps to childbirth.
I went home ready, took the next day off of work and waited for a painful, icky experience...and I waited, and I waited, and I waited. I had some mild to moderate cramping and inconsistent bleeding and I passed a couple of marble sized tissue. After 2 days of this nothingness, I decided to return to work. The next week bleeding picked up slightly, but not by much.
I went to the doctor again, on November 4th. I got a wand ultrasound, again, which confirmed that I was still pregnant. This moment was devastating, I just wanted to be D.O.N.E! While they don't normally give miso a second time, they agreed to for me.
To shorten the story, basically it was Groundhog's day. After a day of sitting around, AGAIN, I decided to return to work. Mid-day I went to the bathroom, as normal, and when I wiped I saw a robin's egg sized tissue in the toilet. I could not believe that had passed without me even noticing. I emailed my doctor and she said that sounded like it was the pregnancy. I think I was in shock when it happened, in retrospect I'm sad that was my experience, but glad that my job is all consuming and I didn't have time to think about it, 300 little faces needed me.
The following week another wand confirmed I had passed the pregnancy. I continued to have light menstrual bleeding for about 3 weeks. The NP told me to take a pregnancy test at the end of November to ensure HCG was out of my system. And...it was positive, ugh!
~CP
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