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6-Kept it a secret, from everyone. We chose not to say anything just in case it didn't "stick"
It's funny how when you're first pregnant you nonchalantly throw in things like "if it sticks" or "if it works" when talking with your partner. It's like you're preparing yourself for something to go wrong and if you say those things early on it makes it easier/better. I'll tell you, it doesn't. Rationally you know women have miscarriages and you pray you're not one of them, but you also try to prepare yourself, nothing prepares you.
I really did keep it secret, we wanted to make it to the 12 week mark (but as week 9 approached I thought we MIGHT tell our family)
Times I had to keep it secret:
--went to Breckenridge for a girls weekend and we had a wine tasting party. I don't drink often, so not drinking wasn't a tell tale sign for my friends, but, another friend I haven't seen in a long time asked if we were thinking of starting a family and my go to line was "it doesn't happen easily for everyone." And she understood, she told me that she had fertility support with her two kids (she was currently pregnant with her second) and she could share that info with me. Little did she know I WAS pregnant
--a teacher at my school was pregnant and I desperately wanted to tell her I was pregnant too, I k
--went to the WIDA conference in Vegas with another pregnant person, I just watched what she ate so I knew if I could eat it or not :)
--She also opened up to me that she had been pregnant before, but had a miscarriage
--I made an excuse to go to a different line at the airport so I could ask for pat down instead of going through the air scanners
Looking back, I am glad I didn't tell anyone I was pregnant, I can't imagine remembering my friends being so excited I was pregnant and then so sad with me when they learned of the miscarriage. That's not to say it's right or wrong to tell people early or not, I just know I made the right decision for me.
~CP
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